November 3, 2010
This morning I woke up and realized I was wrong. Gah!! I hate when that happens! I mean, it happens a lot, but I hate that feeling of realization that my stubbornness and frustration was incorrect.
I’m a pretty calm individual. I don’t wear my heart on my sleeve. Even people who know me well often don’t know some of the frustrations that plague my mind. I am very analytical and thought tends to consume me.
I’ve been very torn lately about a particular situation. I have experienced a roller coaster of emotions that leaves me feeling exhausted. I realized this morning that the fault is in me. When I truly stop and think about all the events that have happened I have never been misled. In fact, I don’t think I could respect such wisdom more. The issue is in my own naivety. I became impatient. I chose a black and white perspective rather than honoring the shades of grey. I wanted a choice to be made when none was required. As usual, I was getting ahead of myself. I was the immature one. OUCH!
Unfortunately, it may be too late to change the outcome of this situation. However, I’m grateful for the learning experience. I can choose to be mad at myself, or I can accept that I make mistakes and grow from my newfound understanding.
So, now I will get ready for my day. I will go and be with my second graders who believe I can do no wrong. Ok, that’s a lie; they call me out all the time! I guess failing is part of life. Getting up and brushing your butt off is what really counts!
Make the most of this day and all it brings. Look for opportunities to better you. Seek opportunities to encourage others. Above all, recognize the blessings of your day and be thankful!